The prize patrol won't be making any stops at my shack..

My mom thinks that I am going through a mid-life crisis.
She says I am realizing that my aspirations to change the world might not come true. hmph. I disagree. I am a little slow out of the gate, is all. I do agree I am in a crisis mode right now.. but not for the predictable reasons..
I won't be getting a fast sports car.. or date my hot secretary.. quite the contrary.. I see my life is in chaos and out of control and I am going to grasp it and take control.
My last hoo-rah in the world of chaos was experienced over the weekend. In my head, I thought the only way to win a million was to actually put some cash on the line. How was I to win the lotto without a ticket,per say. SO, I went on a gaming site and played blackjack and roulette.. and quickly LOST my entire POT. (no worries it was only $20.) I am going to have to live my life the hard way.. and earn my rewards.. I guess I will appreciate them more... Right?